Sunday, November 8, 2015

The Rush

Do you remember that rush?

The soft beginning to the violent burst of feelings. The way you breathe heavily just before you let go. Let go of all your wild emotions and simply fall to get that 'high' you wanted.

Yes, I am talking about that rush. I know, you get it now.

The point is, and has always been, to go a little far from normal. Move ahead and beat the hell out of yourself. Away from your fears. Jumping to your cravings. Your esteem desires.

The one way, which makes you feel like ,say, GOD.

That moment you forget what you are, your past, your worries, these all do not matter.

All that is left in that second is just you and your ephemeral soul. The soul which took so much to appear. That moment you realize that life is all about falling.

You fall to reach higher.

Give in to your senses. Relax. Make peace. All that rush only lets you relax.

So the next time you do something crazy, that gives you a rush. Do not think too much, just do it.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Aandhi


Aaj bhi phulon ko kya tum mehkate ho,
Titliyon ko badmashi yun sikhlate ho.
Jo yeh mujh se kehti hai pagal hawa,
Mujhko chune se pehle tum inhe chu jaate ho.

Aisa koi waqt nahi tha jo tumhare hone se khushi na mili ho mujhe,
Aisa koi waqt nahi tha ki tumse kuch kahne pe mann sakuchaya tha,
Haan ye waqt kuch aur hai ye tum jaante ho hum bhi,
Jisme shabdon ki jagah nahi bas saans ka shor hai,
Thoda to rok liya tha tumne bundon ko kuch pal ke liye hi sahi,
Aage raasta lamba aur baarish bahut zor hai.

Kabhi kabhi ye sochta hun, jo aaj wo sapne hakikat se ladne lage hain,
Jo dur itne nikal aaye ho ki raaste alag se lagne lage hain,
Kuch tumne na suna hota,  Kuch maine na kaha hota,
Kuch maine samajh liya hota,  Kuch tumne samajh liya hota
Thoda aur chalna tha tumhare saath,
Kuch dur aur chal leta to kya ho jaata,
Thoda aur guzarna tha tumhare saath.
Agar saath hi guzar jaata to kya ho jata.

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Bus stop

If the world was a bus stop,
As we would wait for the bus to arrive,
A look, on your pretty little eyes,
Will dazzle me, will tease me, even ignore me,
Watching you as a child watches a star.
Not to utter a word, just hiding my look when you discover,
Never understood that look in your eyes,
Which wanted to read the same lines I had,
Wanted to talk, wanted to share the feeling,
But never had the courage to do the same till the bus arrived.

Strangers we were,
Strangers we shall remain.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

I failed to qualify jee..what to do.

You failed in a exam. Not your life. This is a simple guide for you to move on with life. So here we begin..

For those who have not qualified in the first attempt:
Please study hard. Its not impossible. I have been there and have done that. Its really hard to be honest. But if you are determined its worth a try. Otherwise stick to your other plans if you don't want to spend another year of preparation over jee exam.

For those who have failed in there final attempt:
1) Look out for good options other than the iits. There are several other branches in other colleges than requires your attention. Some are at par with the standards you expect. Remeber its not the end of the world. Its just an exam. Most of the famous people you see on tv have not qualified IITJEE. You can still make a huge difference without the tag. Your work matters not the name of the institute. The name of the institute just ensures the reputation of good students placed in industries, so it creates more oppurtunities than others during the campus. But a company hires an able candidate on or off campus. Its important to know the subject rather than going after the name of institute. You can become a much more successful engineer, even if you don't study in the iits.
2) Follow a good hobby, a nice routine and enjoy with whatever options you have. Take mind off you failure. Do what you do best. Everyone does it to remove stress. Moving on is very important for a positive attitude. Don't ponder or repent over your mistakes. Also do not pay attention what your neighbour has to comment on your failure. No one and I mean it, no one has the right to judge what you are capable of doing or not doing. There is nothing like impossible.  Set another target, another goal and follow it with your heart. Yoga is good. Morning walks, painting, music are also nice options. Most importantly see life with a new perspective. Remember every new day is a present to you and you have to enjoy it to the maximum.
3) Sit with your friends and share memories, have a chat, roam around. 'Anything but studies and discussion about studies or jee'should be the condition from your side. Get out of the house. Do not lock youself in. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Failure is permitted, remorse over it is not. Go wild, do crazy stuff. For a few days, pack your books and hide them in a closet. No HC VERMA, no Irodov, NO TUTES, NO ARIHANT. Only an empty study tables and a clean room.
4) Finally the most important thing " spend some time with your parents". You might have never realised they are great people to hangout with. And you won't ever feel uncomfortable with them. I shared similar time with my mother. There is a saying "time is a great healer". Its true, and the rate of healing increases if you remain happy with a positive attitude.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Lost



What if I had to cry?
Would they call me weak?
I don’t know what others might say but the fact is that there is too much to lose for me. Sadly there isn’t much to gain. They say to move on and so I do.
The world does fall into places nowadays. Emotions and dreams take a heavy toll on me. I am weak yet sometimes I am strong. I am lost.

A good question is why I am writing a blog.
This blog signifies that bad things are a part of this life. We wait for the happy endings. And then we forget the darkness that still might reassemble in the near future.
Trust me on this. This blog is a reminder that we all have been in the darkest corners and we have returned. Someday I may read it again to share the same emotions and take a lesson of it.

अभिषेक  

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

The flower

Of all the things i wished for,
Of all the world that i bought,
it was a flower that gave me peace,
and shed my burden of thoughts...

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Zakhm


Main to boond tha sajoya,
main to sari raat soya,
sooraj ki halki roshani ne,
kuch waqt pehle jagaya,
phir jaane kha se kaise,
ek jhoka zor se jo meri daal ko yun cheda,
na jaane kab aur kaise main zameen pe aaya

abhi to main hara hun, abhi to main bhara hun,
bas thodi hi dur bikhra hua,
abhi uss ped se jhada hun.
har toote patte ki tarah meri bas ek hi aas hai,
aasman nahi to kewal ek daal ki pyaas hai,
pankh nahi to kewal ek sahare ki talash hai,
warna meri ye zindagi, bas ek sukhi laash hai.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

An Epic Joke


A mother was working in the kitchen, listening to her five-year-old son playing with his new electric train in the living room. She heard the train stop & her son saying, "All of you bastards who want off, get the hell off
now, 'cause this is the last stop! And all of you bastards who are getting on, get your ass in the train, cause we're going down the tracks."
The horrified mother went in & told her son,"We don't use that kind of language in this house. Now I want you to go to your room & stay there for TWO HOURS. When you come out,you may play with your train, but I want you to use nice language."
Two hours later, the son came out of the bedroom & resumed playing with his train. Soon the train stopped & the mother heard her son say, "All passengers who are disembarking the train, please remember to take all of your belongings with you. We thank you for travelling with us today & hope your trip was a pleasant one." She hears the little boy continue, "For those of you just boarding, we ask you to stow all of your hand luggage under your seat. Remember, there is no smoking on the train. We hope you will have a pleasant and relaxing journey with us today."
 As the mother began to smile, the child added, "For those of you who are pissed off about the TWO HOUR delay, please see the fat bitch in the kitchen."

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

5 Fears that can Destroy an Artist (copied)



#1 Self-Doubt (What if I’m not good enough?)

This is probably the number one fear of any creative professional. After all, we are not creating necessities but luxuries for the most part. As much as our art enriches our life and the lives of others, it remains something that we (at least as consumers) could probably live without.
When money is tight, luxuries such as purchasing books, music, tickets to performances, and artwork are often the first to go. We are not doctors, teachers, or even farmers–we don’t create or provide a service that people can’t live without. As artists, we are well aware of this fact which only seems to fuel our sense of self-doubt. At times we can’t help but feel well. . . expendable

What if no one wants to buy my work?
The cure for self-doubt is surprisingly not success. The world is filled with famous and successful artists, writers, and musicians that are still riddled with depression and feelings of self-doubt. Unfortunately, for the majority of us, this is not something that ever completely goes away. Instead we have to find a way to live with this doubt and value the creative process as much as the work itself.

#2 I’m not original enough (someone else is doing it better)
While it may be true that all the great themes in art and literature have already been done before a thousand times over, it’s always possible to bring something entirely new to the process.
Let’s face it, writers and artists have been borrowing from their creative ancestors since there has been a thing called art. Even Shakespeare borrowed almost all of his work from other writers, but in the end, there is little question that he made them distinctively his own.

“Those who do not want to imitate anything, produce nothing.” ~Salvador Dali
Stop trying to constantly reinvent the wheel. Instead use it, learn from it, model it, and then create your own version of it. Don’t worry about being seen as an imitator. We have all learned our art from those who have come before us. Embrace it and create a version of it that is true for you.

#3 People won’t take me seriously as an artist

“Art is a hobby and not a real job”

“I’m afraid that my friends and family will be disappointed in me”
The truth is that your career as an artist is only as serious as you take it. Do you work at it as your “job” or do you only work at it occasionally as your “hobby”? How much work do you really put into it daily? If you were your boss, would you pay yourself for the effort that you are currently making?Having to deal with you friends and family (especially parents) can be particularly tough when it comes to them seeing you as a working artist. The bottom line however is that they will take you and your art as seriously as they see you taking it. In other words, if they see you putting in 10-15 hours day after day working not only on your art, but marketing your art as well, they will begin to see you as a “working artist” rather than just their kid who
does art.

#4 People will steal my work or my ideas

One of the biggest fears that artists have when I ask about them selling their work online is that they are afraid that people are going to steal their work or their ideas. While there’s no doubt this does happen, far too many artists are using this as an excuse to stay out of the online marketplace all together.
Yes, people steal ideas all the time. You do it, I do it, and every artist under the sun has done it at some point. We look for ideas that speak to us and then we use them to spark our imagination. We’re not talking about these people, however, we’re talking about the real thieves who simply take stuff off the internet and pass it off as their own.Although this is certainly a real problem, you also have to realize that these
artistic parasites are a very small minority of the online population. 98% of the people looking at your work online have no intent of stealing your work, they are simply enjoying it and maybe, just maybe, they might be interested in buying it.

#5 My work is never as good as I imagined it would be
No artist is ever completely satified with their work. Some pieces you will always like better than others but the pursuit of perfection is only a mirage that keeps you from moving on.

“Art is never finished, only abandoned.” ~Leonardo da Vinci

At some point, however, you have to let it go and move on. You have to accept the fact that even the greatest authors, composers, musicians, and artists were still unsatisfied with their masterpieces in some way. Perfection is an illusion that will eventually consume you if you let it. Think of each piece that you create as a stepping stone on a much longer journey. You will never get to the next stage of development as an artist unless you are willing to set that piece aside and move on to the next.

Just let it go.

Live your art

Monday, August 13, 2012

After Effects: Creating Fire by Trapcode Particular



My new creation.
Made in Adobe After Effect from following plugins
1. trapcode particular(by red giant software)
2. filter photo.
3. glow

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Rise


Someday I might wake up in a house up on a cliff,
on the curtains of green above the rocks so stiff.
when the sparrows tweedle as the seagulls cry,
as the twilight’s sulk turns into a dawning fresh birth,
and golden meadows tends to sly,
as dust from heaven spread over the earth.
As I open my arms wide with a measured yawn,
and feel the air that passes on,
the message to wake up, to rise, to run,
as to rise as knight from the sleep of a pawn.
As I open my eyes more and more,
clearly I see the distant shore,
less the men, much the sand,
free as bird, away from the land.
Someday I might wake up from this dream,
the humble laughs and my subtle screams,
the morbid world of truths which lies,
on a torn emotions with broken seams.
One day when I will rise….

Soniyo : My first Song

link to song: Soniyo

please listen

Saturday, August 11, 2012

So close yet so far

I ran far to find my ship,
the ship that sailed to the dreamy shore,
never did i sail, as i waited for the one,
only i ran, more and more...


The best idea is to implement it..don't think much.

The worse will be failure but if you don't start you will never win. Understand that patience is important only when understand the risks. Waiting too much never pays.


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Just a thought # 002


·         We grow innocent, are taught to become saints, mug-up to be strong and finally grow up to become a con in a mob.........creativity is forfeited for the sake of life that just doesn't exist
·         

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Paradise

When shadows glow and silence cry,
blood worth water and tears so dry,
when the sacred dreams go dim and shy,
as burnt snow from a dormant sky.

I wish for a day with a brighter sun,
where happiness lies amidst the smiles,
and a whisper so sweet as a lullaby,
no one to peck , no one to pry,
the only truth among a million lies.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

The maid

From hunger and distress,
when life is in a mess,
in a pale melancholy dress,
she faces the mistress.

She wipes and sweeps,
she sweats and weeps,
never warm and weak,
she works every week.

from suffering and pain,
as days let drain,
never uttered complain,
only tears to gain.

Wages not much,
but life is as such,
to feed the young ones,
she toils and runs.

from hunger and distress,
to another mistress,
i wonder from what she is made,
my wonderful maid.

Vedna

Ashant, wyakul, pathik ye mann,
uspar chanchal yah chali dhan,
maansal ango se wanchit tan,
kare sheet mein pallav sa kampan.

lekar agni ki madhur taap,
karta mann mein yah vilaap,
kab karenge panchio madhur gaan,
na le jaye yah chann har kar yeh pran.

hota nai waqt ka bodh,
aur wyarth kisipar karna krodh,
lekar agni se jeevan jwala,
peena ha ab veeshbhar pyala.

hogi subah, samay hoga mera,
aur dekhega kal ka savera,
niklunga jeevan path par akela,
aur khulega kismat ka mela.

Hua hai mujhko aatmagyan abhi,
kar karen na prakat vedna kabhi,
le seekh yah seekh jeevan mein sabhi,
daya ki bheek se shrama aaghat sahi